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Yeah.
So uh what's up?
Feeling:
confused confused
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But seriously,
don't these girls have anything to do other than to try and BE ME?!
So they can hopefully date my ex?
It's really beyond lame.
But that's Georgia for you.
They're all running around dying their hair black and screaming their favorite movie is whatever they think he likes/they see on my page.
Yesterday one of these little 'followers' copied the pics I took of him and put them up on her page. MY PICTURES! MY ART!
And she's not the first one.
I'm about to go through the roof.
Gimme a bomb
kay?

Rant done.

Being:
My Room
Feeling:
aggravated aggravated
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When you open up a Kashi bar the size of your middle finger,
eat half of it,
then save the other half for later.
???
Yup I'm not right in the head.
Not at all.
Being:
My Room
Feeling:
awake awake
Sounds:
Orgy: "Stitches"
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Craig's entire fucking profile + 10 new pics I took.

Comment or I'll feel my efforts are in vain.

*cries*

Craig =
http://www.myspace.com/sodomcmuffin

<3
Coley

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I had a dream.
And you were in it!
And you, and you, and yes you too!
It's kind of freaking me out actually.
How do you dream about people you've never met
and one's you haven't seen in years?
Being:
My Room
Feeling:
awake awake
Sounds:
Marilyn Manson: "This is Halloween"
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I apparently nothing is physically wrong with me.
In fact, I'm quite physically healthy.
Now here's the funny part.
What is wrong with me is apparently what's in my head.
I've been so depressed, I've been willing my body to die.
WOW.
That's pretty impressive for a teenage girl.
That type of mental power so early could do some damage... (HA!)
Like when you get so upset about something that you vomit?
It's like that times 10. Especially since I'm on birth control and there's no way in hell I should be bleeding.
Even better: They never determined where the blood was coming from!
How fucked up is this?
Being:
My Room
Feeling:
accomplished accomplished
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So um... I lost a couple pints of blood today from my lower region.
The doctors don't know what's wrong with me yet...
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Who despite all of my efforts NOT to get sick. (it seems to happen every time I'm really upset about something) I did.
I smoked 4 American Spirits yesterday...might have something to do with it.
Or maybe it's just the complete lack of nutrients I'm taking in...blah.

On a different note:
So I was reading some of my old journals today from when I just turned 17. Damn, I used to be soooooooooooo much nicer! It's kind of embarrassing what a social bitch I've turned into over two years. I suppose my circumstances with people affected that...
It's just so weird though.
I sound happy, or maybe just dumb.
Either way, there's no angst in my writing...
It's dumbfounding...

Being:
My Room
Feeling:
blah blah
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